Most Likely because of my up coming surgery. These emotional roller coasters are getting tedious. I don;t even like roller coasters :/
Either way I have made a list of different things, important things that have happened and changed over the last 25 years. Since well, after this surgery I will no longer have something that I was born with. It will change the way my brain works and let's face it, that is scary as shit.
*My hair has gone form being long, to super short to long and is now for the first time since I was in Middle school short again
*I have 10 tattoos now and am ready for more
*3 out of the 4 Major Boyfriends I have had are now married
*2 of those have children
*I have gone from being in college, to working 3 jobs, to not working, to having to go on disability
* Almost every dream I had is gone except for one
So they say the more things that change, the more stay the same. I deem that Bullshit. The more things that change, the more they change. Period.
Fact of the matter is I will be having brain surgery in 15 days. 2 brain surgeries in fact. And it will change everything. Most of my fiends near by in Florida as so consumed with their own things, they don;t even bother with me. And the One that would bother is in Virginia.
I am not sure what I am going to do for the next 2 weeks, but I am sure I will figure something out.
This is my MRI and my lovely AVM
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